It has been a few days since I have checked in.  Literally, I am just waiting to see the doctor.  The pain in my lower right is constant at times sharp sending me over and exhausting.  My lack of being able eat is taking a toll on my energy level and the pain is taking over my ability to sleep.  Spending a normal day with my loved ones is just too much and sends me over the edge.  My life as I knew it is no longer normal and I am longing for the days of old where my crohn's was there but not running my life.  This is and has been a hard path that I am taking and I hope for some relief in the near future.  I can't continue day in an day out feeling that my health has taken over.  They called to remind me of my doctors appointment with the new specialist on Wednesday and I said of course I will be there.  It's my last and only hope at the moment.