It is becoming very hard for me.  Went out of town I am screaminig and crying in the hotel bathroom, sicker than a dog.  Caught something on the plane that feels like bronchitus, racking cough with green mucous, fever and I feel really bad.  Lupus kept be from being able to get myself in and out without difficulty.  The worse is going back to the hotel by 4 in the afternoon to go to bed because I just can't do it.  This doesn't feel like living and I feel very dependent on my poor husband who generally most of the time tries to make the best of it.