I am in so much misery, I took a bath, sat and cried and put my pajamas back on. Then I decided I needed to once again pickup myself up and try to do as much as possible before giving in.  So that is what I did.  I am not convincing myself.  My Lupus is flaring with red breakouts and excruciating joint pain.  My Crohn's was all night and all morning.  It is hard when this is your daily life, everyday same thing.  The sad fact is that there are millions of us all in the same situation.  With the drug companies getting rich off of so called treatments, there is no reason for them to want to try and shoot for a cure anytime soon.  It's not in their best interest.   So once again, I try and make the best of a very bad situation.  Pain is a four letter word for a reason!