Friday, February 19, 2016

It seems as if my health has come to a cross roads.  I have been bleeding and in pain from my Uterus for 7 weeks and not just bleeding but heavily.  Twice I have been told I needed a Hysterectomy and last time my GI denied it.  Said it was too risky.  I am at a point where I just don't have a choice.  My bowels have decided it's time to give me terrible trouble and I ended up on the bathroom floor and it looked like a crime scene. Bleeding heavily from my bowels. Now if I didn't have Crohn's Disease I suppose I would have been sure I was dying and I could be but I know it's coming from a fissure in my anus or a tumor.  I realize I type this as if it's just so everyday, believe me it's not.  But in the scheme of what I have been through in my life it's not surprising.  Now to figure out if it's one surgery, two or will it just be easy or hard. I understand where my Doctor doesn't want to just go in and give me a bag but at some point the bleeding is going to force the hand and I hope we get this figured out and done before that happens.  My head is throbbing and I suspect it's from Anemia which I go into today to find out?  It's doctors appointments everyday and I am a wimp and hate going.  I have really let this come to a head because I know there's little that can be done for me. I can't treat my crohn's due to Positive Tb, liver damage and blah blah blah and I couldn't treat the Hysterectomy because of the Crohns.  I realize it could be worse and I just keep that in mind as I go through the struggle of what is called my health.  I have great family support from my inner circle and a handful of friends who care and a dog that gives me kisses, what more could a girl ask for? Oh, I know, my Health.