Everyday I get up and push myself.  I miss the days where I woke up with energy and feeling like I had life by the horns.  Now I feel like every movement has to be thought about and I literally have to pull the strength from in myself to keep going.  Where did things go wrong?  When I was diagnosed with Crohn's Disease and then GERD and then LUPUS and then LIVER Illness and LATENT TB.  That's where things went wrong.  All of these symptoms and illnesses have sucked the life out of me, but I won't give in as many don't, I will pretend I'm okay and push through it.