I'm really quite miserable.  I think my lack of running to the ER and or Urgent Care isn't beneficial to my cause.  I suppose if I didn't try to always suffer through it, I would probably get more help in the end.  I can't even get help today with my pain, my husband asked if I needed to go to the hospital and I always refuse and get through it.  Truthfully, I have spent so much money on this disease and every visit costs an arm and a leg in tests. I'm getting to the point that I just cannot keep dealing with all this pain.  When is enough, enough.  Two natural child births make me realize I'm no wimp either but really, it's getting very old.  I wished I had something pleasant to say, I just don't.  It just isn't any fun!