One of these days I'm going to post, all is well I feel great, unfortunately not today.  Pain all night long, tossed and turned and finally awake about 3 a.m.  Bowels that make me cry and feel like I may pass out all the while praying to god to get me through.  The pain is excruciating but I have to tolerate it and get through it.  I finally gave in and took a pain pill, always later than I should but I can't stand feeling hopped up on pain pills constantly.  So I must wait for it to kick in, it will help keep it at a dull roar until the pill wears off and I decide whether I can suffer through it again and so I begin each day, the same but some day it will be different.